Yay!

Hurray!

Yay I've finally registered for the dance courses I've always wanted to join! :DDDDD

We have the line dance course which I'm going to be attending with my mum and sister!
Whoo hoo! I've got company ~ I've got company ~ xDD

I've also decided to go on ahead with taking up the salsa course xD
Unfortunately xd couldn't join me :(

So guess what?
I dragged my sister along!
Yay me!
Great huh? :P

Now I'll have company :D
That was the main thing that held me back all this time.
The company.
*shrugs*

I guess i just never feel secure enough without having someone I know with me.
But that's all gonna change next year anyway.
I'm afraid...

I'm glad my sis didn't make that big a deal out of me dragging her with me.
Unlike how I would have done if it were something I hadn't done on my own free will.
I'm relieved.
I feel way better.
I don't dread the first day any longer.

Thankies! *I'll say it here cause i can't say it in real* *thankfully you don't even read my blog* *muahahahaha! :P*

P.S. Sorry xd for my very monotonous answers yesterday ><

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It's seriously irritating to feel like you're the only one who wants to get something going.

Like you're the one who has to do the planning, and to take the initiative to get the ball rolling.

It's freaking ANNOYING!

I'm not the only person involved!
But it feels like I'm the only one who wants it.
The only one who's doing something about it.

I start to feel like I'm being pushy.
Even desperate.

I know you're busy.
I OBVIOUSLY am NOT -.-

So OF COURSE I HAVE to do it.

I think if I don't, no one else will either -.-
So that's great huh?

Maybe I shouldn't bother.
Then we can all sit around and wait for something to happen.

When I bring the topic up, it's like totally brushed aside.
Or given at the most a cursory glance, a few responses that comprise of at least more than 2 words, before it becomes just that.
Or better yet.
SILENCE.

So how about we just let it rot and wait till it's finally TOO LATE, and don't do it in the end.

Wonderful no?

-.-

I thought I had dropped the stupid plan day-to-day habit of mine.
It seems not.
Though it sure has lessen a lot.
I guess it's still there.

Maybe I will just ignore all feeling linked to that, and just leave everything where it stands.

Yea maybe I just will.

Graduation night!

Ok so the day I shopped so much for finally came and went.

So much effort for a mere 3 hours? (which they tricked us saying 6 hours -.-)

Lol but I'm glad I went for it afterall.

It wasn't half as bad as I expected.
But it wasn't that grand a thing.
The thing that made it most enjoyable was the friends.
Without them, the day wouldn't have turned out as well.

The food.. was well... the food.
I'm a picky eater.
Not to mention slow.
But yea... I ate what I wanted...
Lol the food wasn't the main thing for me though.
Unlike some people... *HINT HINT*

The best part was the phototaking after the whole thing.
It's when most people started losenning up and going crazy.
Which the pictures are prove of.
I can't believe some of the pictures taken.
I can't believe some of the picture I took part in.
GAH.

I can't believe I even took pictures.
Don't get me wrong, pictures are great.
Just as long as if I'm not in them ><

I hate taking pictures, especially when i'm in school uniform and all with my hair all tied up like a good student.
So yes, I guess I losened up.
But STILL.... GAH.
Too much!
><

Lol there were too many photos taken with me in it for my liking T.T
But I can't do anything about them now.

So yea that was graduation night.
A night I doubt I'll totally forget.
Thanks guys!
For making it an unforgettable night! :D

Shopping

Lol ok.

I hate shopping.
But for once in my life, I did it willingly.

I mean as much as I say looks are secondary, everyone wants to look their best, especially fro graduation night.
Ok the thing is, if it was a wedding i was attending (not mine -.-) I wouldn't care in the least.
I guess it's to do with the fact that it's among students of our school and of course friends.
That makes it more important.
Which was what spurred me on.

So yea, I spent more than I wished I had.
But guess what, mine was still rather little compared to others :P

So yea, now after grad night, shopping will no longer be of any interest to me.

But i guess shopping gave me something to do for once.
Now without a target to work towards, I no longer have much to do.
I think i shall grow bored soon.

Bored already in fact.
I'm even playing runescape -.-

Xd's and kelly's outing

For once, I didn't feel guilty for doing anything else other than studying.
For the past 3-4 weeks, everytime I do something else other than study, I always feel guilty.
Yea, I feel it.
The thing is, I just pushed it aside, and did nothing about it.
I wish I did do something though.. But guess its too late huh.

Ok so yea, we shoved O levels aside and really openly enjoyed ourselves for the first time in a month since the O's started.
The movie was planned, we watched Madagascar.
It seemed that our group grew twofold from the original, it became a group of 9 people consisting of Xd, Kelly, Jenny, Leen, Wy, Aud, Cheryl , kenneth and of course, me.
The movie was better than I expected.

So after that we had plenty of time to waste, and we decided to go check out the Kbox.
After much debate... though i had no intention on singing, I decided to just pay and go ahead.
The outing was after all in honour of xd and kelly and they wanted to sing.
It would only be nice if I joined them :P
Unfortunately, my rountine headache after a movie just couldn't disappoint.
Add that to the almost permenant headaches for the past few days.
So let's just say the beginning of my first experience at the kbox kindda sucked.
With the loud blaring music pounding through the speakers and the pounding headache it more or less became (pounding)^2.
You seriously dun wanna feel like I did.
The headache decided to stay as well.
I pretty much felt like shit for more than half the session.

It got better, I started to join in and sing those songs that I knew but still refused the microphone.
To be perfectly honest, I thought my singing sucked.
And I hate embarrasing myself.
So yea it was that way for awhile.
While the other few like xd, kelly, cheryl, wen yan and audrey did.

Lol never knew xd and kelly sang so high.
I can never reach their pitch.
Both of their voices are quite easy to pick out amongst those who were singing, cause they were mainly on the higher range.

Oh not to mention there were many chinese songs that I had never heard in my life before.
I got bored after awhile.
Together with xd and jenny, we took the long 10 chinese song break to go to the library nearby to borrow books.
We actually got back before the 10 songs ended.

After that we had sorta sot-ted more.
So yea, managed to get jenny to actually sing.
Like really sing -.-
He's not bad!

Ok by then I had losen up to and was pretty enthu already.
When the others had left, leaving me, xd, kelly and jenny, I finally had the guts to try with the microphone.

Firstly, using a microphone is weird.
I sound nothing like what I sound like.
I didn't sound anything like i thought i sounded like.
I couldn't really hear me actually >< lol so it wasn't as bad as i expected.

The last hour was crazy.
The other 3 sot people even danced -.-
Lol it was funny seeing them!
Cute :P

All in all, I'm glad I decided to join them after all.
I can't wait to go again! xD

OH MY GOD

YAY!
The stupid freaking "O" levels are finally over!

I'm relieved it's over.
But regret not putting the needed effort.

Yes, it is over, I can't do anything more about it.
But I guess the horror of those horrible papers will forever be lurking at the back of my mind, returning to pay me visits from time to time whenever I don't want to think of it.
Until I get my results that is...
Once I get it, I'll have no choice but to accept.
So till them.. I'm still gonna feel guilty.

Dearest Physics

So like we all know and have complained over, here comes the very touchy topic of our dearest physics paper today.

Wow.
Today was like totally amazing.
The paper was so wonderful.
I totally knew what I was doing.
The chances of me getting an A1 is like soooooo high!

NOT.

I'm not good at physics.
Never was.
Never have been.
Actually, I've never gotten an A for physics in my whole 2 years of taking in.
I did actually get a B though.

So I thought to myself that although I studied almost close to nothing, maybe I would at least be able to scrape through it.
But guess what?
I guess I won't huh.

I'm used to failing this subject.
Actually, I'm used to failing.
Period.

So it won't be a surprise if I get a fail.
But a girl can hope can't she?
Guess it was a bit too much to hope...

Scraping through is officially impossible now.
Thanks for making real obvious to me.
I now have no need to hope for anything other than a fail.
I should expect nothing better.

It's now glaringly obvious.
Thanks for giving me hope that I COULD have at least passed.
You just had to take it all away didn't you?
Make me feel even worse than I do.

Hopes dashed, as you cruelly brought me back to reality.

Hey but it's like totally my fault.

- Yes, I know I didn't exactly put in the effort.
But still, you didn't have to make it so hopeless for me did ya!?
- Wow the teachers so thought me everything in the paper that was tested.
I'm just never listening huh!?
A mere whisper, that... NO BODY heard oO?
- It's totally in the syllabus!
I just conveniently didn't see anything on it!
- Wow it's in the textbook!
There were so many diagrams!
That were apparently invisible to the eye!
- The new stuff are just for show!
There is no need to test it!
- The old stuff are still in the textbook.
That's why it's called OLD.
It's TOTALLY there!
So test it why don't ya!

Just go combust.
Just go melt.
Just go photosynthesize!
Like whatever!