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It's seriously irritating to feel like you're the only one who wants to get something going.

Like you're the one who has to do the planning, and to take the initiative to get the ball rolling.

It's freaking ANNOYING!

I'm not the only person involved!
But it feels like I'm the only one who wants it.
The only one who's doing something about it.

I start to feel like I'm being pushy.
Even desperate.

I know you're busy.
I OBVIOUSLY am NOT -.-

So OF COURSE I HAVE to do it.

I think if I don't, no one else will either -.-
So that's great huh?

Maybe I shouldn't bother.
Then we can all sit around and wait for something to happen.

When I bring the topic up, it's like totally brushed aside.
Or given at the most a cursory glance, a few responses that comprise of at least more than 2 words, before it becomes just that.
Or better yet.
SILENCE.

So how about we just let it rot and wait till it's finally TOO LATE, and don't do it in the end.

Wonderful no?

-.-

I thought I had dropped the stupid plan day-to-day habit of mine.
It seems not.
Though it sure has lessen a lot.
I guess it's still there.

Maybe I will just ignore all feeling linked to that, and just leave everything where it stands.

Yea maybe I just will.