Yay?

OK so, there's like 2 more days till the end of fasting.
The first lunch I'm gonna have after hari raya is Mac!
Grrrr... But the thing is... My teeth are not cooperating either.
Stupid teeth!
I can't even eat properly T.T

~ Gah ~

Anyway, totally slacked the weekend away again...
Such a failure.
I'm like so bored, but I feel like doing nothing.
Does that make sense oO?
Sounds weird to me.

~ ZZZness ~

Slacked at home the whole of yesterday.
Today, I woke at almost 12.
I even went to the supermarket O.O!
Never mind, at least we have junk food at home now :D
I'll have things to eat.
Especially for my nighttime snacks!

GRRRRRRRRR...........

Ever feel left out?
Feel that sometimes you're left out on purpose?

I always do.
Maybe it's me being paranoid or something. *shrugs*
But I hate the feeling of not knowing.
So I just shut up.
If you know nothing, there is nothing to say.
Unless you wanna make a fool out of yourself and say something wrongly.

So get this.
It is not because I don't want to talk.
It's because I don't know what you're taling about.
So I have nothing to add to the conversation. Period.
I am not having mood-swings.
I AM NOT oblivious to what is going on around me.
It's a matter of whether I chose to respond to it or not.
I do listen, whether you know it or not does not concern me.
But DO NOT. I repeat, DO NOT, ever treat me as though I am not there.
That's when I really get pissed and really don't feel/ want to talk at all.

I admit.
I'm a very insecure person.
I always think that what I do is wrong.
That i may unintentionally say something wrong or hurt someone.
Another one of my many faults.
Maybe I shouldn't care so much.
I keep telling myself that.
It just has no effect on me.

No idea why.
But I hate it horribly.
It's a weakness I cannot stand most of the time.
When I recognise the feeling in me, I respond in a weird way.
Another reason why I don't talk.
I mean come on.
If you don't say anything, nothing can go wrong no?

I have no idea why I'm even writing this here.
It's the spur of the moment thing.
Once I gain my senses, it will disappear.

- Some Tests I Did -

O.O!
Never knew I was that bad.

- Discovering my sins test -

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Very High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz


- The Personality Disorder Test -

Disorder Rating Paranoid: High Schizoid: Moderate Schizotypal: High Antisocial: Low Borderline: Moderate Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Moderate Avoidant: Very High Dependent: High Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Yay!

Whoo hoo~!
Got my books!
Went to the library today, got myself a few books which can hopefully last me.
Though I wish I had had the discipline to have just ignored them totally.
Unfotunately, that was not the case, and I gave in to temptation and just borrowed them anyway.
But hey! It wasn't me who looked for the books. It was my sis :P
So I sorta just sat and slacked and waited for her to bring the books to me.
Evil huh? (I know ><)

So...Besides that, nothing much happened.
Woke up at the normal 5 am to eat. Went straight back to bed after that.
Woke up at about 11 +. (O.O)
Lolz so yea... Had to get out of bed to reach my hp. (which was ringing - xd called ><)
So yea, picked it up. Decided I didn't want to go watch the movie with them.
Since I was already up and about, I decided to remain that way.
But I have to say, I was surprised xd was already awake by then :P

~ lalalala ~

I really have nothing else left to say.
Days to O - 29
Die.

Bored

Time : 12.13 (start)
Day: Sunday (early morning)
Should be: Sleeping
Currently: Blogging (bored!)
Feeling: Sian (Still bored!)

~ROAR~

So it seem I have nothing to do to pass my time, but blog.
But the thing is... I've got absolutely nothing to say.
Well.. I guess I could tell you what I did today.
But that would be just plain boring.

~ BLEH ~

I'm craving more romance novels!
I still don't seem to get enough of them.
No matter how predictable they are.
Man! This sucks.
I so should not be thinking of STORY books.
I should be dreaming of TEXTbooks instead.
But that is so not happening.
Not now, not ever.
I seriously wonder how people really push themselves.
Do they like... NOT have a life?
That they study 24/7 and do absolutely nothing else but eat and breathe?!
Ahh.. I know it's an exaggeration.. But you should get my point.

~ ZNESS ~

Oh I finally got my MAC today!
We broke fast at the mac at amk drive-through.
But we of course ate there.
Only... My dad had to spoil things in the beginning.
But after the food was bought, the seats secured, we had fun.
Just crapping , laughing and enjoying each others company.
It's very seldom we do that.

~ Haiz ~
I'm off to shower. Cya!