It's Official

So... we all received our posting yesterday.

Before that, there had been the chance that I may possibly in the same school as xd.
Or even the chance that i may be in a school where most amksians went.

Now I'm officially not.

Yesterday... we went to appeal(again) there.
But... As much as I would love to think positively...
My chances are real slim.

In a way, I'm resigned.
But still I hope...

I'm regretting my choices.
I'm really regretting how i ranked the choices of the schools i wanted to apply to.
I'm regretting not learning more about the schools I placed in my choices before I placed them in my choices.

Now, I face the consequences.
I brought it upon myself.
I have no choice.

I'm feeling numb.
Glad for it though.
It pushes aside the panic I feel every time I think of tomorrow...
It holds the tears at bay...
It keeps me hoping...
It prevents me of thinking of what I have now lost...

As I write this post...
It comes back...
Those thoughts and feelings.
And I wish I didn't start this.

As much as I hope.
This will very likely be officially the school I go to.

I'm scared.
I'm lost.
I will be.

The thought of... starting all over.
Of... remaking friends...
Especially for one like me...
Scares me.
Makes me desperate.
I just wanna scream and cry at the same time.

I hate this...

results

Ok.. So we got back our results yesterday...

Yay....?

Gah. I'm not happy with my results.
I know I could have done better.
But again.. It's too late.

So now I'm stuck with my results... and have to make do with it.

Yay... ? I can get into a jc?

Only... Not very good ones though...

So yea.. Now I'm like totally confused.
And am at a lost.

I have no idea what I should put in my choices.
I don't want to go to jc... yet... I don't want to go to poly...

So.. yay?

Gah.
So I have about 3 days left.
I'm still stuck.
Roar.

I don't want to chose.
I don't want to take the step that will affect the route my life will go.

Haiz~

It's killing me on the inside

Crap man...

I feel like just giving in to tears..

I keep trying to think of something else.
To tell myself that tomorrow is nothing.
To tell myself that it'll be alright..

But...
It doesn't work.
I know it will not be alright.

ROAR!
I freaking want to scream!

I both want tomorrow to come quickly, and to never come.

If it were over.. I won't be feeling this.
I'll be feeling... something else. (... trying not to think pessimistically...)

If it didn't come...
I would be stuck feeling this...

BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Red cliff 2!

Yay!

We finally got to watch the long awaited red cliff 2!
It was way better than I expected.

Yes, plenty of people died.
In the end there was no victor.
They both suffered heavy losses.
Though one less than the other.

The battle was the worse part of course.
The cute "pit"... Just had to die a horrible death.
3 arrows straight through him...

Man.. He was just so cute in the innocent way.. WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE!!!!

Yea so...
The battle tactics weren't as grand as they were in the first movie.
I still remember the turtle/tortoise formation.
It was way cool.

However, I got to say that it was quite funny.
I loved the part where kong ming got the arrows.
So funny!
Lol!
I still laugh over it as I replay the scene in my mind ><

All in all.
The wait was not in vain.
It was totally worth the wait.
I can't say it's the best show i've watched.
But it was one of the best.
Especially since it's a chinese show. (you should know how much I love chinese ><)

So yea ta-da~

The movie managed to keep my mind off tomorrow.
The dreaded day.
As I wrote the beginning of this post, I totally forgot.
Now.. I remember the day to come.
And I feel uneasy all over again...

Salsa lesson 2

Whoo hoo~

Right ok ><
Had my second salsa dance lesson today.
It was so fun!

We had our recap session in the beginning on the basic steps and rythm of the salsa.
We also learnt to do it to the side and back which were basically the same thing only in a different direction.
After that, we (the females) learnt our basic steps the other way around. (because the one we learnt was the guys move).
We then did partner work just with those basic steps.
Due to the lack of males ><
They had to be shared :P
So yea, every male danced with ever female.
And the females took turns.

I started off with the instructor, so there were a grand total of 5 males.
Each male had a partner (except for the instructor).
And so we started.
We learnt the positioning of the hands and such.
So we did a few sets before we changed partner, or the lack of therefore ><

We went a whole round before we moved on to the next part of the lesson.
The turns.
That's basically the female's job.
So yea, we learnt it.
And even tried it with a partner.
The same thing.
We took turns.

Lol!
It was like so cool man ! ><
We ended our lesson with that.

The minute we got home, the three of us practiced :D
We got to be the female and the male.
I think I'm better as the male ><
But the female moves are fun!

I can't wait till the next lesson :D

My first line dance session

Yozy!

My day was rather boring today.
My computer decided not to work for me, and hanged every few mintues.
Sometimes, it hanged the minute it started up -.-
Stupid aint it?

Anyway, it was a real boring and slackish day, with no computer to use whatsoever.

However, the line dance session made my day :D

The dance class we had joined is apparently an elementary class of stage 2.
The class was mainly for exsisting members as well as for newcomers with dance background.

So you can imagine the struggle all 4 of us had (my mum, sisters and me), when they started off with a dance they had learnt previously ><

We managed to catch up and move on.
I had no idea the dances would be taught so fast and that we would have finished learning not 1 or 2 but about 5 different dances in the 1 1/2 hour lesson.
Sounds hard eh?
But it isn't that bad.
The thing about line dancing is that it's bascailly learning a set which is repeated over and over again till the music ends.

Lol!
It was fun stumbling along and dancing.
I loved it!
Though the 3 of us sisters were probably the youngest of the whole lot ><

The music used for the dance are also catchy songs, with obvious beat.

All in all, I had a great time.
Especially since I had company :D

A long awaited bout of exercise finally accomplished today.
I totally sweated it out :D

Bye!
Time to shower~
I totally stink ><

My Birthday!

Oh yea, my birthday.

The first group of people to wish me a happy birthday was of course the company present at that time.
I even had a bear sing me a birthday song! :P

So I got a small chocolate cake from the guys the second night of the chalet.
And a cute card! Even my mum agreed!
I received a cute bear from them too!
Yay!
:DDDD
Thanks guys ~ xD

ok so... after that we crapped more and fell asleep.
Left the chalet at 10.30 to check out and went for macs.
We killed time there by crapping and took the shuttle back to the mrt station at 12.
After tavelling and lunging all the heavy stuff around.
I finally reached home at about 2.

I left at 4 with my mum to fetch my sis.
From there, we fetched yet another.
Home we went after that.
Played Mj with sibs for awhile.
Youngest sis came back.
Sulked because another sis took her seat at the table, since dad wasn't home nor eating at home.
So we ate and continued with mj.
Dad came back and we left for ice cream!

Apparently I get free Firehouse birthday? From swenseens since it's my birthday.
So we finished got home.
Cut the cake and opened the presents.
Oh the cake was durian!
I chose it :D

List of pressies.

Bear (1st pressie, from guys)

Rest are in of no order

Monkey (sisters)
Dolphin keychain stuff ( Ri )
Screwdrivers ( Ri )
Towel ( Mummy ) It's big! YAY!
Jeans (Mummy)
Cap (mummy)
Earphones (fei)
Crab keychain thingy (Jol)
Makeup set T.T (aunt)
2009 planner (aunt)
Lipgloss set (aunt)
Bell Keychain (ri)
Mystery box (Zeppy)
Blue skies wallpaper (Zeppy)
Card-Daughter's are special (papa & mummy)
Card-Enchanted universe (aunt)
Card- Bear (Guys)

Total money received = 100 (papa) + 100 (aunt) + 17 (mummy) = 217 ><
Money in cash = 217-100(cheque) = 117
Money officially kept = 117-100=17

Yay me! :D

Chalet

So I'm back from the 3 day 2 night stay with the kel and xd, (jenny only 2day 1 night).

Anyway so, I guess it turned out both better and worse than i had hoped.

The company was great.
At least I didn't get bored :P

The sucky part was.. well.. the service.
The check in was the worse.

Firstly, apparently we had to be 18 to check in. (I had no idea about this -.-)
Secondly, We were not 18.
Thirdly, We can't check in until 2.30.
Fourthly, we has a mass calling session/party to look for 18 year olds and above that we knew who were around the area (which was pasir ris by the way, meaning the chances were slim)
Fifthly (oO?), apparently any 18 year old and above would do. So all we had to do was ask a strager that was 18 and above.
Sixthly (oO?), that was happened.
seventhly (oO?), We asked a random person.
Eightly (oO?), We asked the wrong person. >< He was a staff in home clothes!
Ninthly (oO?), So approach guy number 2 from outside the area.
Tenthly (oO?), He agreed to help!
Eleventhly (oO?), I want to thank that guy. You rock man! Mr pat, I think that was his name, helped us check in. Yay to him!
12ly (oO?), The room we had been assigned to, couldn't open.
13ly (oO?), A staff aproached us after we tried opening the door.
14ly (oO?), apparently the room had some trouble with the lock. (seriously why assign us the room then -.-?)
15ly,We were stuck outside and had to wait.
16ly, the staff came back with the key to another room.
17ly, room wasn't made.
18ly, the same man that we approached the first time (the staff) came to collect us.
19ly, he recongized us. 20ly, we were led to out new room.
21ly, the room sorta sucked ><
22ly, floor was dirty.
23ly, insects all over.
24ly, toilet was small!
And the list continues...

The day got better thanks to the company :P

Ok... so we apparently burst 2 paper balls that xd brought the first day, as well as the second.
All in all, they all had a short lifespan ><
But it was fun whacking it around without fear of it hurting anyone (since it was paper afterall)
Thanks for bringing the rather lame.. but fun balls XD! ><

I also learnt how to count points for Mj!
Actually it was the first time I actually played the correct way of MJ with real tiles ><
So thanks kel!
For the teaching :P
Had fun playing MJ for the past 2 days :D

Oh yea, the first night we totally stoned early.
Like at 12 +.
Main reason being, we were watching a rather... boring movie. ><
Not the type to keep you awake.

The second night however, I stayed up till 3.
I was the last to sleep though.
Everyone else had crashed.
But we had fun being lame and asking lame questions.

Oh we played taboo too. It's quite hilarious the way words are described ><
Oh not to mention Jenny sucks at describing :P

We played twister too! On both days.
And I ALWAYS get tangled T.T!
In the most akward and painful positions too!
I just realised it's always with XD. O.O
ROAR!

Although I end up aching all over, I still had fun. ><
I'm glad we planned this.
I had a great time :D