Dearest Physics

So like we all know and have complained over, here comes the very touchy topic of our dearest physics paper today.

Wow.
Today was like totally amazing.
The paper was so wonderful.
I totally knew what I was doing.
The chances of me getting an A1 is like soooooo high!

NOT.

I'm not good at physics.
Never was.
Never have been.
Actually, I've never gotten an A for physics in my whole 2 years of taking in.
I did actually get a B though.

So I thought to myself that although I studied almost close to nothing, maybe I would at least be able to scrape through it.
But guess what?
I guess I won't huh.

I'm used to failing this subject.
Actually, I'm used to failing.
Period.

So it won't be a surprise if I get a fail.
But a girl can hope can't she?
Guess it was a bit too much to hope...

Scraping through is officially impossible now.
Thanks for making real obvious to me.
I now have no need to hope for anything other than a fail.
I should expect nothing better.

It's now glaringly obvious.
Thanks for giving me hope that I COULD have at least passed.
You just had to take it all away didn't you?
Make me feel even worse than I do.

Hopes dashed, as you cruelly brought me back to reality.

Hey but it's like totally my fault.

- Yes, I know I didn't exactly put in the effort.
But still, you didn't have to make it so hopeless for me did ya!?
- Wow the teachers so thought me everything in the paper that was tested.
I'm just never listening huh!?
A mere whisper, that... NO BODY heard oO?
- It's totally in the syllabus!
I just conveniently didn't see anything on it!
- Wow it's in the textbook!
There were so many diagrams!
That were apparently invisible to the eye!
- The new stuff are just for show!
There is no need to test it!
- The old stuff are still in the textbook.
That's why it's called OLD.
It's TOTALLY there!
So test it why don't ya!

Just go combust.
Just go melt.
Just go photosynthesize!
Like whatever!

Taking up space

Ok this post is mainly to take up space.

Oh about the collage.
I don't see any resemblence to any of them.

But it was fun and amusing to see the people that supposedly look like me.
LOL!
Not to mention shocking.
I mean seriously oO?
Do I look anything like them?

~ SLACKING ~

I'm totally slacking!
NOOOOO!
BAD me! (=.=)
Lol really, I so shouldn't be here.
Not to mention be typing this.
Or even wasting time on the collage thingy.
GAH!
WHY?!
WHY do I have so little disipline T.T!

My Heritage Face Recognition

Lol ok so I was so bored. I went to try this.

My Heritage Face Recognition - http://www.myheritage.com/celebrity-face-recognition
Basically what it does is to scan your face and then match it to faces of celebrities.
It compares the likeness and then rates it in term of percentage.

So I tried my picture. From... I think about 3 years back?
I look about the same anyway.
But it was my best picture yet.

Wanna know why?
1. It was using a handphone camera.
2. The handphone camera wasn't that good.

Lol ok so anyway.. these were the results.

78% Norkys Batista
76% Woranuch Wongsawan
74% Bonnie Pink
73% Jang Nara
74% Zoe Tay (@.@!)
74% Jet Li
72% Kajol
71% Holin Tsai
71% Takeuchi Yuko
71% Miriam Yeung

oO?!
I'm like whatever...




Ok. So now with a slightly better camera and a picture more updated (somewhere this year), I obviously have a different batch of look-alike-celebrities.
The percentage likeness has also dropped alot.

Quizzy!

Quiz

I'm tagged by: Myself?
I'm so bored!
But I don't wanna study ><

Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag the people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1) Have you given your first kiss away?
Ohhhh yes!
Hmm more than first in fact!
To my.. Father, mother, sisters and brothers.
Duh! oO What were you thinking :P

2) Spoilt?
Yea definately! I'm sot too ! xD

3) Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Nowhere in particular, just a place where I can have peace... FINALLY -.-

4) If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
For school to be non-exsistant.Which will never happen.
So on a more realistic side... To not be a continuous disappointment.

5) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yea... In my dreams.
In reality, nah . It will never happen.

6) Who/What are you afraid to lose the most now?
The people I love. Friends and family.
Change. I hate change.

7) If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Save a portion, donate a portion, invest another portion.
Actually, I have no idea.

8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Nope, I'm shy ya :P

9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Lame,lame and.. lame? ><

10) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Plenty of stuff, too many to lists out.
Most importantly
1. he cannot smoke or drink
2. must be funny
3. NO vulgarities >< (does not swear)
4. NO unneccessary piercing!

11) Which type of person do you hate the most?
Liars, backstabbers and hypocrites. People who judge everything just by its cover.
As much as we all know it (looks) is an important factor, it's not everything.

12) What is your ambition?
No idea. I take a day as it comes.

13) If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Rather they keep quiet. Hey, they're my faults... I know them. ><

14) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Not to judge people, not to jump to conclusions without facts and to think positive whenever possible.(though it never happens)

15) Are you a shopaholic or not?
Not. I hate shopping.... unless its for an unlimited supply of romance novels ><
Present shopping is ok too i guess XD

16) If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
My looks? (though i hate it when ppl keep harping on their looks ><), my stubbornness and my selfishness.

17) What do you usually do at home?
Play the computer, sleep or slack.READ! YAY!

18) Any weird habits or quirks?
Erm... what the definition of weird oO?

19) How do you think the person who tagged you can change to be a better person ? (It's perfectly fine to leave it blank if you think he/she is perfect).
NA since I'm talking about me.

20) What would you be doing if you were not taking this quiz?
Slacking, reading.Being bored

people I tag:
1. XD-dy!
2. Kelly!
3. Eneeli
4. Jenny! (take in my tagbox since you don't have a blog) xPPPP

Afraid

GAHZ!

Ok here I am, 2 days before the first o level paper.
BLEHS!
I'm afraid for not feeling afraid.
Makes sense?
....

Man! This is so sucky!
I think on of the reason why I'm feeling this way is specially so, since I'm feeling drained.
The common test, the prelims... and now the o's.
In a time span of... what? 3 months oO?
Stupid man.
Wow. I am SOOO not drained.

Another reason is probably because I no longer feel anything when I get my results.
I've already failed time and time again, that now I no longer cry over it.
Now I see the score and just shrug.

I have to admit that one reason is because I know I didn't put in my all.
It seems I won't be either for this MAJOR O level exam.

I feel nothing! Nil! Zilch! Nada!
Oh Man!
PLEASE!
I need to feel the urgency like... NOW!
Before would have been better.
But now won't be bad either....
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr

Oh man...~
This sucks big time.

So much to do. So little time

Ok...
Today felt like it was the last day of school.
But duh, of course it so wasn't.
Slacked the whole day away.
Even came online. (as can be seen since I posted)
Horrible.

~ Gah ~

What else is there...
Er...
I'm slacking now.
Yay me.

~ ROAR ~

I can't wait for tomorrow to end.
Like seriously.

Man this sucks.
I feel bored.
There's so much to do, and so little time.
Yet I don't seem to be doing anything.
I feel guilty.
Very guilty in fact.
But apparently not guilty enough -.-

~ Haiz ~

Failure

Sometimes the same feeling keeps rushing over me.
The same old feeling of failin,of dissapointment.

I know I'm incompetent.
But there is no need to keep bringing it up.
Or rubbing it in my face.
I know as the eldest of five children, I have failed miserably.
I KNOW ok!

I know I'm not good enough.
I know I never will be.
I KNOW it.
So DON'T bring it up.
I beg of you!

I hate myself for that.
Hate myself for dissapointing not only me, but you.
I know you no longer have high hopes for me.
I have to say, I can't expect you to after failing you all this time.

The thing is, I've already failed.
I've resigned myself to that.
I can no longer, and am not that high in your eyes.
There are the other siblings to take over me and do better than I have.
For that I'm glad.

But time and time again, you bring it up.
Be it intentionally or unintentionally.
Even her teasing... It hurts you know.
Real bad.

Even today...In the car...
You've set your hopes on her.
I'm sure she'll be the one to make you proud.
I never have.
I doubt I will anymore.
Nothing is enough.
She has done everything I've not.
She won medals, been excepted into good schools, she's the one you've pin your hopes on.
Now I'm at the next stage.
If I fail you again.
It will be she who'll be the one.
And I KNOW I will fail.
I'm not good enough.

I don't have her motivation, determination, kindness and tolerance.
I'll fail you.
That's a sure thing.

~ I hate this ~

A spur of the moment feeling that has been bugging me for ages.
Forgive me for letting it out here.
If you happen to read it, I'm not emo.
I just needed to let it out.

Today

Hey...

So yea, Hari Raya has offically came.
I can start eating during the day already.
But it feels real weird.
I keep stopping short from reaching for water or food before I remember fasting is over.
I have to say that I've almost got used to it.
Unfortunately, I've gotta change my rountine again.

~ Z ~

As usual, we have the normal Hari Raya rountines.
Wake up in the morning, bathe and change into Baju kurung.
Have the normal asking for forgiveness session and then we eat our so called breakfast consisting of the same old stuff from every Hari Raya.
Next comes the visitors.
My cousins from my dad's side.
Boy, was it akward.
The cool thing was my oldest cousins daughter.
So cute!
I actually carried her!
Lol she seemed to like me, I was actually surprised (and secretly pleased).
But of course that wasn't the case (shrugs).
I think it was my shiny teeth that got to her.(braces...)
Or that's what everyone deduced that is.
I guess that was the most likely reason.

So that's here.
My phone hardly does her justice.
She's way cuter in real life.
I love her eyes.
They're pale brownish green, with slight golden flakes.



So yea.. That was in the morning.
After that we left for my maternal grandmother's house.
The old boring rountine as well.
I hate going there.
I feel so akward...
So out of place.
The way we've been brought up.. Is such that we hardly know anything of our own religion.
Sometimes I wish my parents had thought us more.
There, everyone was so close to one another.
It felt as though my family was totally out of place.
Hardly any of us siblings mingled.
My dad was even worse, he totally stood out like a sore thumb.
He was the only one not in the festive clothing.
When it was time to go back... That was the worse.
Everyone was asking one another for forgiveness, and we just tried hiding ourselves away.
That's what I go through yearly...
It has come to a point that I can actually say I do not look forward to Hari Raya...

~ haiz ~