It's not alright

My week...

2009-05-20T00:04:00.004+08:00

The week's not even half over yet and I'm real beat...
3 tests in the past 2 days...
Another 2 on Friday.

Wonderful no?
That makes the average number of tests per day a grand total of.... ONE!
A freaking one -.-

Haiz
Not to mention the school has to be stupidly idotic and place bio and chem on the SAME day one AFTER the OTHER.

Friday it'll be BOTH the languages which I'm totally clueless in.

Great huh?
Life can't get any better.

Oh wait.
It can.

It seems all my non-language common tests are after the holidays, so yay my holidays are forced to be spent on studying!
Not only that I've got to learn to make Kimchi as well ! -.-

OHHHHH you just gotta hear this.
The best part of my holiday has been postponed as well.
The GERMANY trip has been postponed due to swine flu.
WHOOO HOOOOOO!

I have OFFICIALLY NOTHING to look forward to YAY

No Germany Trip.
Yes homework.
Yes study.
Yes kimchi.

At least I have salsa....
Haiz.....

Happier note

2009-05-07T22:43:00.002+08:00

Whooo it's fei's Birthday today.
Happy Birthday fei!

Lol I suddenly feel very old. ><
But yea la, I ain't that much older than her....

Lol.
So... She's the first in our family to get an mp3 mp3, not the handphone mp3.
I'm happy for her I guess.

While we were wrapping her presents today, we started talking about presents.
We realised that fei got the first mp3.
Rusty got the first psp.
I got the first.... Dunno?
Jol got first... dunno?
Ri.... No idea either. A matter of time.

It feels weird ya know.
Having your young sibling getting something you never had before you have.
Ah but it's no great lost.

I may feel envious and jealous....
But I can't do a thing about it.

It isn't something I really wanted or want anyway....I think ><

Forgotten

2009-05-07T22:22:00.002+08:00

You forgot didn't you?
Yea I guess you did.

I tried refraining myself from reminding you.
I find I appear desperate.
The only one who wanted it.

Since it's not important enough to care about....
To remember...

Why should I bother?

The thing is I do.
Unfortunately.

Because you forgot....
I feel out of place.
Uncomfortable.
Uneasy.
Lonely.

Do I mean anything at all to you?

I am merely someone to keep you company when no one else will?

I seriously don't know.

I had a random talks with one of my friends...

Maybe it's just me.

I care to much.
Think too much.
Feel too much.

It's me who makes myself unhappy, uncomfortable, lonely and such....

We were talking...
She told me, her first meeting with me was scary.

She said I looked unsociable and scary.
Am I really?
Do I look that unapproachable?

Maybe I do.
How do you make one look more approachable oO?

.........................

Hey

2009-04-28T18:44:00.002+08:00

Hey its been awhile.

There's no difference.
I'm just as bored with school.
The same falling asleep in lectures and class.
The same late work.
The same teachers.
The same environment.

But.... Not the same dance steps!
YAY!
Moving on to Intermediate.
We'll be starting our lesson this sat.
Can't wait!

I want to join more classes....
I brought it up once when my parents were there....
My dad... Wasn't supportive.
He just had to burst my bubble...

Ballroom/ social dance is my current interest.
Can't he give me something to gush over and be all hyped up for?

I know the uni has them...
So what?
That's a while back.
I've been postponing joining lessons since like forever.
I only finally took the step and started this year.

Haiz.
Nevermind, I shan't let him affect me.
I know these stuff will affect the time I have left for studying.
I know I need the time badly too.
But still...
Haiz....

I'm still going to look for more lessons.
Since the only person who will join me for any of these lessons (xd) wants the lessons to be either on waltz, tango or foxtrot, my range is rather little.
Nevermind!
Hope there'll be a lesson starting soon somewhere nearby.

Yo...

2009-04-05T00:55:00.002+08:00

Yozy...

I'm freaking tired.

I've been so for the past few days..

No idea why -.-

Which is why I currently have a whole pile of homework to complete in my supposed weekend.
But guess what?
Saturday has passed and it's now Sunday.
I guess I won't be finishing them.

Man... I feel like such a failure.
Why can't I be like the others and DO my work.
Why do I have to feel so drained after I get home every night -.-
So much so I can't think straight, don't even start on studying and doing my homework...

Fantastic.
Great.
Wonderful.

CCA is officially 2 days a week now.
Which brings the number of free days to 1. (weekday)
Tuesday.
Yay.

Or not.
Since it's the only early day, it's used for extra lessons/ make up lessons/ consultations / lectures....

WOW.
WONDERFUL.

At least I've still got Salsa....
But it's already the 6th lesson....
I hope he'll continue teaching...

It's the only time I don't think about the mountain of homework I have to so much as start on....

Chinese tuition's been .... great?
I'm thinking of asking her if she can teach me twice a week again.
I really need it....

Maybe I'll ask the "boss" there if I could possibly go to the center after school on my ONLY free day, to make use of the facilities to study...

This sucks...

Again

2009-03-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

You did it again....

I should have expected that.

In fact... I did.

I just hoped....

That you wouldn't...

Guilty...

2009-03-26T22:52:00.003+08:00

Why is it you make me feel guilty for doing things which others can easily do?
Why is it you make me feel guilty for such small things?

You did it again ya know.
You made me feel like shit.
You made me chose, because you phrased it such that emitted your disapproval.

You happy now?
I'm doing it your way.

Hah....

Today

2009-03-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

So... today has been one of the most slackish days since school started.

I feel guilty for indulging...

Haiz...

But it was fun.

Met up with the others.
Hmm first time in 2 weeks whereby everyone was there.
I think.

So yea.. went to school for a freaking 1 hour -.-
So waste time...
I could have slept longer instead...

Then met jenny, was suppose to have mac but it was overpopulated with Saints :P

I called xd.
Jenny called Kel.
It was funny ><

Since I called first so naturally xd picked up first.
Though I have to say I was rather surprised.
The sleepy hello which I've missed pretty much told me it was the phone call which woke her up.
Talked, asked, discussed.

In the meantime ( while i was still talking to xd), Jenny called kel.
And conveniently passed his phone to me.
So there i was, holding 2 phones.

I practically had the same conversation all over again.
I was also greeted with a sleepy hello.

That's the funny part. ><
The sleepy hellos :P

Ok... So.. got to amkss...
Collected cert...
Went for lunch.
Stoned.
Left.
Back to school.
CCA meeting.
Melted.
Got burnt.
Perspired.
Ended.

Met Kel and xd for movie.
Marley and me.
Wasn't that great.
Wasn't bad either.

AND THEN.
Me and xd did the paint thingy which I was deprived of when i was still considered a child.
I looked so stupid there.
In my jc uni ( thank god not my full u ><), sitting on the ground, since sitting on the chair gave me no leg space whatsoever, not to mention a backache, doing the art thingy.

Lol it was fun.
Kel was looking at us with horrific amusment ><
Sorry for dragging you along again!
I know you were bored :P

But I think my Winnie-the-pooh came out rather alright :D

Yay me!

Chinese tuition

2009-03-15T20:18:00.003+08:00

Whoo hoo!

I've finally started my chinese tuition.
Not to mention... I've got the same teacher!
YES!

The only way I've been able to survive tuition last year is due to the fact that it was her who taught me.

With her I have more confidence ><
She's my favorite Chinese teacher.
The only teacher who has made Chinese anywhere remotely close to interesting :D

I'm glad I've started tuition.
I know I need it badly.
The earlier I start the better.

Unfortunately, my teacher is high in demand.
Her schedule is packed to the brim ><
I'm thankful she has agreed to slot me in somewhere.

I'm her only current JC student.
Thus it'll be a slightly harder job for her.

I've told her this before.
But I want to say it here too.

Thanks! ><

Finally

2009-03-14T10:37:00.002+08:00

It's finally the holidays...

FINALLY.

It'll all be over soon though.
The first 2 days of the week are already occupied with school.
Wednesday is currently my only free day.
Thursday and Friday going Malaysia.

Haiz...
It'll be over all too soon.

Ok... MSA1 just ended yesterday.

I'm officially failing them all.
It'll seriously be a miracle if I do pass.
I have to admit that I didn't study.
So I guess the marks I get would be deserving.
But still.....

ROAR.

I really really need to get back to study mood...
I don't even care about exams...
How can that be?

It used to matter a lot.
Now... I just sleep the day away...
HOW?!

I've decided.
That I won't come online during the weekdays except when there is a need to do projects.
During the weekends, I'll have to chose to either be online during the day or at night.
I've also decided to take up my mum's offer to tutor my brother in science.

The thing is... It's Primary 6 science.
Totally different from what I know now.
So I shall just give it a try.

I offered to tutor my other two sisters, as they were closer to my level, and would in turn help me revise for my own lessons as well...
However my mum refused, saying that she would see first.

As for timetable...
I have no idea how to do that.
If i reach home early, I'll eat, shower and then...
When I attempt to start reading my notes for example, I'll end up nodding off.
So I'll take a nap and waste the remaining time of the day away...
Wake up before dinner and then... every one's home.
So.. do nothing again.
Wonderful....

I feel like a failure.
I've accomplished nothing.
At the rate I'm going...
I won't accomplish anything.

MSA

2009-03-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

It's the first set of tests/exams and I'm doing nothing.

Really, I'm doing nothing.

I'm still totally in holiday mood.
I haven't seriously studied.

Even today, I slacked half the day away and even till now, I haven't exactly touched my stuff.
Haiz...

I keep telling myself that it'll be fine.
That I'll pass even without studying...

But I know I won't.
I'm just deluding myself.

There were 3 tests today.
Total crap.

Chinese...
I tried spending the day before re-writing the compo we had done before since my teacher said the question that would come out, would be along those line.
I rewrote it using p6 Chinese examples...
Since narrative was the only option given, and I haven't written one in Chinese since like forever.
So I wrote it, and tried memorising it.
And fell asleep half way.

The next morning I was panicking.
I revised what i had memorised in my head even while the national anthem was playing.
While they were having scripture reading and prayer, i was busy finishing up the last few paragraphs.

Then guess what?
I totally forgot them all when it was time to write.... -.-
So Chinese screwed.

Now next..
GP.
Ok that's definitely a fail too.
I had no idea how to paraphrase and substitute words.
I couldn't even think.
What's another word for happiness? -.-

Yay.
After that... chem....
I was suppose to have 1 hour of chem tutorial before a half an hour break and then the actual test.
Guess what?
My teacher didn't even come.
So we didn't get to ask her stuff.

The test was the worst of all.
I think only 1 out of 27 finished the paper.
I'm one of the 26....

Great huh?
It'll seriously be a miracle if i pass all my exams....

Cross Country

2009-03-04T20:30:00.003+08:00

Yay!
Isn't cross country great huh?
Wonderful no?

-.-
NO.

Bleugh.
Unfortunately I had mine today.
Yay me~

I didn't run though.
I just wasted time walking in a loop of 3.6km.

And wonderful, my old injury is acting up yet again.
Not to mention that I have PE for the next 2 days...
Which I'll definitely have to run...
Sucks man...

Z.

I hate pe.
I hate running.
I hate the shorts! (It's short!)
ROAR!

I wanna get the guy shorts, but it'll be like totally weird... T.T

So.. we ended early then they told us.
I had time to kill before supposedly meeting the guys at pp.
Which didnt happen by the way.

So.. I just tagged along with my class and followed them to pp.
I knew I was gonna eat with the others, so I just told my class to go ahead and chose non-halal stuff.
Then, I got wonderful news that jenny won't be able to make it.
So the plans changed.
Meeting at ps instead~

Eh Kel, I just realised that lunch convo was one of the serious ones in a long time o.o
Eh but cool.
Gotta know more about how you think :P

Ok anyway..
Noooooooo, I didn't find my salsa cd! T.T
So sad :(

Out of place

2009-02-28T20:29:00.000+08:00

I feel so.. out of place.
I'm happy to have made it and gotten into the cca of my choice.
But again... I don't feel that I belong there.

The 2 rounds of elimination and I'm one of the few left standing.
I should be pound of myself no?

Why don't I feel so?

I keep wondering how it was I even got there.
What was it I had that convinced them to chose me?
Why me?
Why not someone else?
What did they see?

As I look at everyone else there... I feel inferior...
Everyone else was open and having fun.
Everyone had a group of friends.
Or at least a friend with them.
I didn't.

At least there's someone from my class too.
She's great.
A great person.
It's not surprising she got in.
But how in the world did I?

I keep asking myself.
What is it I have that the others didn't?
I still come up blank.

I don't think there's anything special about me.
I don't have any ability whatsoever.

Again, as I look around me at those other great people that have been chosen.
A fear comes up within me and I start to panic...
What if I do something wrong?
What if.. the teachers find that they made a mistake in choosing me?
What if...

I've never felt so uncertain and insecure.
I keep thinking that my every move is checked.
That within a group filled with great people, I'll be standing out...
Not as the greatest, but one of the worst...

I'm afraid I won't do well enough.
I'm afraid I'll be given the boot.

Change

2009-02-28T20:07:00.002+08:00

I hate change.

I just realised how much I tend to cling on to what has been.
Sometimes I think I'm the only one.
Everyone else moves on.
But I feel as though I'm stuck.

I keep feeling and thinking that I'm the only one who wants what was.

Is it so bad to feel this way?

I think that thinking this way leaves me less open to other situations and people.
It's a hindrance as it narrows my mind-set and leaves me restricted.
I'm looking for sameness.
Something/someone who had something in common with what I had.

I miss what was.
But perhaps it's only me who does.
Everyone else seems rather unaffected by it.

Now I have to start from scratch again.
Adapting to the environment, to the lesson, to the curriculum, to the people.
I hate it.

I feel out of sorts.
In a maze on my own and no one to accompany me.

I don't know if it's true, but perhaps I'm a bit to reserved.
Do I emit some aura which just screams go away leave me alone?
I dunno man.

JC

2009-02-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

Jc...
It's just one word.
Crap.

It's totally sucky.
And full of suck.

To think I thought secondary school was bad.

Every one's studying.
I'm not.

Teachers don't exactly make the lessons anymore easier to understand either.
Going at paces where almost no one can catch up with, just so to meet the time.

In the end, what do we get?
Nothing.
Just a carbon copy of the teachers underlined words, circled numerals and unreadable scribbling.
Anything in my head?
No.

And they want us to go for an exam...
I think I'm like just gonna flunk everything.
I 'm quite sure I will fail my very first Chinese exam of the year...
At the rate I'm going.. I'm bound to fail the others too..

I'm starting to panic...
What if...
I'm just not good enough to be promoted?
I don't want to waste another year!

HOW?!

Only way is to study...
Haiz...
How appealing...

SALSA

2009-02-21T15:30:00.002+08:00

WHOOO HOOOOO!
I'm continuing salsa!

YES!

OMG salsa is like so cool.
Not to mention fun!

I'm so happy~
Salsa always makes my day :P

Today was the last lesson for the salsa elementary stage 1 course.
We just signed up for the salsa elementary stage 2 course :D
Weeeeee~

So I'm still attending the lesson on the same day at the same time :D

I wish I could join other ballroom/social dances.
But there are certain restrictions.
1. No one to join with me.
2. It there is, time may clash.
3. Time constrain. (I'll always make time for it!)
4 Venue. The CC here only has like one new ballroom/social dance course per month.
5. Timing. It's often in the middle of the day, which in the end doesn't allow me to do much else.
6. Day. Saturday is the best.

Haiz...
Anyone wanna join me? :D

Life.

2009-02-21T00:27:00.002+08:00

Ok.. So it's been awhile since I actually wrote about school, so I'll start now.

School's not so great, as usual...
Late hours, horrible boring subjects, un-interesting teachers...
Yea you get the drift..

We got our official timetable today.
I'm so excited...
The earliest I end is at 2.30...
And wow!
My FAVOURITE PE!
They're twice a week!
I can't wait.... -.-

So far, my class has been unlucky enough to end up with all the boring teachers...
Especially Econs...
Man.. I don't get a single thing...

I seriously got to start working ...
I've forgotten all my basics, and thus am stoned at most areas.
I really gotta move it and start!
To add on, I've got to read the additional stuff piled on.

Wow... JC life is a real breeze...
At the rate I'm going...
I'm starting to fear that I won't get promoted...

Hah... I really need to organise my time...
Divide the remaining time not inclusive of lessons into CCA, studies, and of course dance...
Dance being the only thing that keeps me moving on...
And of course the unique courses and trips coming up for our CCA!

My class is great.
Great people and all.
But unfortunately a lack of guys T.T
Hey! Don't mistake my statement.
Less guys to befriend!
I find guys funner than gals :P
No offense ><

Unfortunately, I've got a horrible CT.
Who's not only irresponsible, but a lousy teacher.
She teachers maths...
And will definitely be teaching us.
In other words... I'm flunking maths.

We haven't had much time to spend as a class as yet.
But from next week onwards, when tutorials officially start, we'll be interacting a lot more with each other.
I look forward to getting to know them better :D

Congratulations to me!

2009-02-20T23:53:00.003+08:00

YAY!
I got in!
I did it!
I got it!
I did it!
WHOOO HOOOO~ ><

Since my parents never see anything I do to be proud of, it's seriously shouldn't have been surprising when they didn't this time either.
But I guess a girl can hope no?

They just can't let me be happy.
They always have to leave a dent in my happiness, leaving a mark that somehow can never return to normal.

Others are not interested in knowing anyway.
I'm bubbling with excitement.
I wish to tell everyone!
Tell them proudly that I'm one of the few who made it in.
But either I get interrupted, or something/someone else seems more important.
As always.

So I guess I'm left to congratulate myself.
Pathetic no?

But I don't care.
I should be proud of myself.
I did it!
I got in!
Even without my parents being proud of me or any other setback, I still have the right to feel proud of myself.
To feel that I have accomplished something.

So don' you people DARE burst my bubble!
It's my effort.
IT'S MINE!
I didn't need your help!
I didn't need you there!
I did it on my own!

I'm surprised I got in.
I was afraid...
Really afraid...
Only I'm sure you didn't know it.
Wouldn't care anyway.

I should have gotten used to it...
I feel pitiful longing for attention and wishing for once they could just truly be happy for me.
But I guess I'm still that small child vying for attention though I never seem to get it.

It's always someone/something that is of more importance.
I'm never listen to.
They don't cares.

I just feel like an extra person there for perhaps decorative purposes.
You doubt me at every move.
You don't believe in me.
You think I can't do anything right.
What more accomplish something.

Why can't I just don't care....
Why do I need your attention...
Your time...
Your care...
Your approval...

Just FREAKING LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY!
I wish I was a cold unfeeling person...
Then I wouldn't feel this...

It's Official

2009-01-31T15:28:00.002+08:00

So... we all received our posting yesterday.

Before that, there had been the chance that I may possibly in the same school as xd.
Or even the chance that i may be in a school where most amksians went.

Now I'm officially not.

Yesterday... we went to appeal(again) there.
But... As much as I would love to think positively...
My chances are real slim.

In a way, I'm resigned.
But still I hope...

I'm regretting my choices.
I'm really regretting how i ranked the choices of the schools i wanted to apply to.
I'm regretting not learning more about the schools I placed in my choices before I placed them in my choices.

Now, I face the consequences.
I brought it upon myself.
I have no choice.

I'm feeling numb.
Glad for it though.
It pushes aside the panic I feel every time I think of tomorrow...
It holds the tears at bay...
It keeps me hoping...
It prevents me of thinking of what I have now lost...

As I write this post...
It comes back...
Those thoughts and feelings.
And I wish I didn't start this.

As much as I hope.
This will very likely be officially the school I go to.

I'm scared.
I'm lost.
I will be.

The thought of... starting all over.
Of... remaking friends...
Especially for one like me...
Scares me.
Makes me desperate.
I just wanna scream and cry at the same time.

I hate this...

results

2009-01-14T00:55:00.002+08:00

Ok.. So we got back our results yesterday...

Yay....?

Gah. I'm not happy with my results.
I know I could have done better.
But again.. It's too late.

So now I'm stuck with my results... and have to make do with it.

Yay... ? I can get into a jc?

Only... Not very good ones though...

So yea.. Now I'm like totally confused.
And am at a lost.

I have no idea what I should put in my choices.
I don't want to go to jc... yet... I don't want to go to poly...

So.. yay?

Gah.
So I have about 3 days left.
I'm still stuck.
Roar.

I don't want to chose.
I don't want to take the step that will affect the route my life will go.

Haiz~

It's killing me on the inside

2009-01-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

Crap man...

I feel like just giving in to tears..

I keep trying to think of something else.
To tell myself that tomorrow is nothing.
To tell myself that it'll be alright..

But...
It doesn't work.
I know it will not be alright.

ROAR!
I freaking want to scream!

I both want tomorrow to come quickly, and to never come.

If it were over.. I won't be feeling this.
I'll be feeling... something else. (... trying not to think pessimistically...)

If it didn't come...
I would be stuck feeling this...

BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!
BLEUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Red cliff 2!

2009-01-11T21:09:00.002+08:00

Yay!

We finally got to watch the long awaited red cliff 2!
It was way better than I expected.

Yes, plenty of people died.
In the end there was no victor.
They both suffered heavy losses.
Though one less than the other.

The battle was the worse part of course.
The cute "pit"... Just had to die a horrible death.
3 arrows straight through him...

Man.. He was just so cute in the innocent way.. WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE!!!!

Yea so...
The battle tactics weren't as grand as they were in the first movie.
I still remember the turtle/tortoise formation.
It was way cool.

However, I got to say that it was quite funny.
I loved the part where kong ming got the arrows.
So funny!
Lol!
I still laugh over it as I replay the scene in my mind ><

All in all.
The wait was not in vain.
It was totally worth the wait.
I can't say it's the best show i've watched.
But it was one of the best.
Especially since it's a chinese show. (you should know how much I love chinese ><)

So yea ta-da~

The movie managed to keep my mind off tomorrow.
The dreaded day.
As I wrote the beginning of this post, I totally forgot.
Now.. I remember the day to come.
And I feel uneasy all over again...

Salsa lesson 2

2009-01-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

Whoo hoo~

Right ok ><
Had my second salsa dance lesson today.
It was so fun!

We had our recap session in the beginning on the basic steps and rythm of the salsa.
We also learnt to do it to the side and back which were basically the same thing only in a different direction.
After that, we (the females) learnt our basic steps the other way around. (because the one we learnt was the guys move).
We then did partner work just with those basic steps.
Due to the lack of males ><
They had to be shared :P
So yea, every male danced with ever female.
And the females took turns.

I started off with the instructor, so there were a grand total of 5 males.
Each male had a partner (except for the instructor).
And so we started.
We learnt the positioning of the hands and such.
So we did a few sets before we changed partner, or the lack of therefore ><

We went a whole round before we moved on to the next part of the lesson.
The turns.
That's basically the female's job.
So yea, we learnt it.
And even tried it with a partner.
The same thing.
We took turns.

Lol!
It was like so cool man ! ><
We ended our lesson with that.

The minute we got home, the three of us practiced :D
We got to be the female and the male.
I think I'm better as the male ><
But the female moves are fun!

I can't wait till the next lesson :D

My first line dance session

2009-01-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

Yozy!

My day was rather boring today.
My computer decided not to work for me, and hanged every few mintues.
Sometimes, it hanged the minute it started up -.-
Stupid aint it?

Anyway, it was a real boring and slackish day, with no computer to use whatsoever.

However, the line dance session made my day :D

The dance class we had joined is apparently an elementary class of stage 2.
The class was mainly for exsisting members as well as for newcomers with dance background.

So you can imagine the struggle all 4 of us had (my mum, sisters and me), when they started off with a dance they had learnt previously ><

We managed to catch up and move on.
I had no idea the dances would be taught so fast and that we would have finished learning not 1 or 2 but about 5 different dances in the 1 1/2 hour lesson.
Sounds hard eh?
But it isn't that bad.
The thing about line dancing is that it's bascailly learning a set which is repeated over and over again till the music ends.

Lol!
It was fun stumbling along and dancing.
I loved it!
Though the 3 of us sisters were probably the youngest of the whole lot ><

The music used for the dance are also catchy songs, with obvious beat.

All in all, I had a great time.
Especially since I had company :D

A long awaited bout of exercise finally accomplished today.
I totally sweated it out :D

Bye!
Time to shower~
I totally stink ><

My Birthday!

2009-01-08T00:21:00.004+08:00

Oh yea, my birthday.

The first group of people to wish me a happy birthday was of course the company present at that time.
I even had a bear sing me a birthday song! :P

So I got a small chocolate cake from the guys the second night of the chalet.
And a cute card! Even my mum agreed!
I received a cute bear from them too!
Yay!
:DDDD
Thanks guys ~ xD

ok so... after that we crapped more and fell asleep.
Left the chalet at 10.30 to check out and went for macs.
We killed time there by crapping and took the shuttle back to the mrt station at 12.
After tavelling and lunging all the heavy stuff around.
I finally reached home at about 2.

I left at 4 with my mum to fetch my sis.
From there, we fetched yet another.
Home we went after that.
Played Mj with sibs for awhile.
Youngest sis came back.
Sulked because another sis took her seat at the table, since dad wasn't home nor eating at home.
So we ate and continued with mj.
Dad came back and we left for ice cream!

Apparently I get free Firehouse birthday? From swenseens since it's my birthday.
So we finished got home.
Cut the cake and opened the presents.
Oh the cake was durian!
I chose it :D

List of pressies.

Bear (1st pressie, from guys)

Rest are in of no order

Monkey (sisters)
Dolphin keychain stuff ( Ri )
Screwdrivers ( Ri )
Towel ( Mummy ) It's big! YAY!
Jeans (Mummy)
Cap (mummy)
Earphones (fei)
Crab keychain thingy (Jol)
Makeup set T.T (aunt)
2009 planner (aunt)
Lipgloss set (aunt)
Bell Keychain (ri)
Mystery box (Zeppy)
Blue skies wallpaper (Zeppy)
Card-Daughter's are special (papa & mummy)
Card-Enchanted universe (aunt)
Card- Bear (Guys)

Total money received = 100 (papa) + 100 (aunt) + 17 (mummy) = 217 ><
Money in cash = 217-100(cheque) = 117
Money officially kept = 117-100=17

Yay me! :D

Chalet

2009-01-07T23:38:00.003+08:00

So I'm back from the 3 day 2 night stay with the kel and xd, (jenny only 2day 1 night).

Anyway so, I guess it turned out both better and worse than i had hoped.

The company was great.
At least I didn't get bored :P

The sucky part was.. well.. the service.
The check in was the worse.

Firstly, apparently we had to be 18 to check in. (I had no idea about this -.-)
Secondly, We were not 18.
Thirdly, We can't check in until 2.30.
Fourthly, we has a mass calling session/party to look for 18 year olds and above that we knew who were around the area (which was pasir ris by the way, meaning the chances were slim)
Fifthly (oO?), apparently any 18 year old and above would do. So all we had to do was ask a strager that was 18 and above.
Sixthly (oO?), that was happened.
seventhly (oO?), We asked a random person.
Eightly (oO?), We asked the wrong person. >< He was a staff in home clothes!
Ninthly (oO?), So approach guy number 2 from outside the area.
Tenthly (oO?), He agreed to help!
Eleventhly (oO?), I want to thank that guy. You rock man! Mr pat, I think that was his name, helped us check in. Yay to him!
12ly (oO?), The room we had been assigned to, couldn't open.
13ly (oO?), A staff aproached us after we tried opening the door.
14ly (oO?), apparently the room had some trouble with the lock. (seriously why assign us the room then -.-?)
15ly,We were stuck outside and had to wait.
16ly, the staff came back with the key to another room.
17ly, room wasn't made.
18ly, the same man that we approached the first time (the staff) came to collect us.
19ly, he recongized us. 20ly, we were led to out new room.
21ly, the room sorta sucked ><
22ly, floor was dirty.
23ly, insects all over.
24ly, toilet was small!
And the list continues...

The day got better thanks to the company :P

Ok... so we apparently burst 2 paper balls that xd brought the first day, as well as the second.
All in all, they all had a short lifespan ><
But it was fun whacking it around without fear of it hurting anyone (since it was paper afterall)
Thanks for bringing the rather lame.. but fun balls XD! ><

I also learnt how to count points for Mj!
Actually it was the first time I actually played the correct way of MJ with real tiles ><
So thanks kel!
For the teaching :P
Had fun playing MJ for the past 2 days :D

Oh yea, the first night we totally stoned early.
Like at 12 +.
Main reason being, we were watching a rather... boring movie. ><
Not the type to keep you awake.

The second night however, I stayed up till 3.
I was the last to sleep though.
Everyone else had crashed.
But we had fun being lame and asking lame questions.

Oh we played taboo too. It's quite hilarious the way words are described ><
Oh not to mention Jenny sucks at describing :P

We played twister too! On both days.
And I ALWAYS get tangled T.T!
In the most akward and painful positions too!
I just realised it's always with XD. O.O
ROAR!

Although I end up aching all over, I still had fun. ><
I'm glad we planned this.
I had a great time :D

Yay!

2008-12-27T12:45:00.004+08:00

Hurray!

Yay I've finally registered for the dance courses I've always wanted to join! :DDDDD

We have the line dance course which I'm going to be attending with my mum and sister!
Whoo hoo! I've got company ~ I've got company ~ xDD

I've also decided to go on ahead with taking up the salsa course xD
Unfortunately xd couldn't join me :(

So guess what?
I dragged my sister along!
Yay me!
Great huh? :P

Now I'll have company :D
That was the main thing that held me back all this time.
The company.
*shrugs*

I guess i just never feel secure enough without having someone I know with me.
But that's all gonna change next year anyway.
I'm afraid...

I'm glad my sis didn't make that big a deal out of me dragging her with me.
Unlike how I would have done if it were something I hadn't done on my own free will.
I'm relieved.
I feel way better.
I don't dread the first day any longer.

Thankies! *I'll say it here cause i can't say it in real* *thankfully you don't even read my blog* *muahahahaha! :P*

P.S. Sorry xd for my very monotonous answers yesterday ><

=.= |||

2008-12-25T19:07:00.003+08:00

It's seriously irritating to feel like you're the only one who wants to get something going.

Like you're the one who has to do the planning, and to take the initiative to get the ball rolling.

It's freaking ANNOYING!

I'm not the only person involved!
But it feels like I'm the only one who wants it.
The only one who's doing something about it.

I start to feel like I'm being pushy.
Even desperate.

I know you're busy.
I OBVIOUSLY am NOT -.-

So OF COURSE I HAVE to do it.

I think if I don't, no one else will either -.-
So that's great huh?

Maybe I shouldn't bother.
Then we can all sit around and wait for something to happen.

When I bring the topic up, it's like totally brushed aside.
Or given at the most a cursory glance, a few responses that comprise of at least more than 2 words, before it becomes just that.
Or better yet.
SILENCE.

So how about we just let it rot and wait till it's finally TOO LATE, and don't do it in the end.

Wonderful no?

-.-

I thought I had dropped the stupid plan day-to-day habit of mine.
It seems not.
Though it sure has lessen a lot.
I guess it's still there.

Maybe I will just ignore all feeling linked to that, and just leave everything where it stands.

Yea maybe I just will.

Graduation night!

2008-11-21T21:34:00.002+08:00

Ok so the day I shopped so much for finally came and went.

So much effort for a mere 3 hours? (which they tricked us saying 6 hours -.-)

Lol but I'm glad I went for it afterall.

It wasn't half as bad as I expected.
But it wasn't that grand a thing.
The thing that made it most enjoyable was the friends.
Without them, the day wouldn't have turned out as well.

The food.. was well... the food.
I'm a picky eater.
Not to mention slow.
But yea... I ate what I wanted...
Lol the food wasn't the main thing for me though.
Unlike some people... *HINT HINT*

The best part was the phototaking after the whole thing.
It's when most people started losenning up and going crazy.
Which the pictures are prove of.
I can't believe some of the pictures taken.
I can't believe some of the picture I took part in.
GAH.

I can't believe I even took pictures.
Don't get me wrong, pictures are great.
Just as long as if I'm not in them ><

I hate taking pictures, especially when i'm in school uniform and all with my hair all tied up like a good student.
So yes, I guess I losened up.
But STILL.... GAH.
Too much!
><

Lol there were too many photos taken with me in it for my liking T.T
But I can't do anything about them now.

So yea that was graduation night.
A night I doubt I'll totally forget.
Thanks guys!
For making it an unforgettable night! :D

Shopping

2008-11-21T21:19:00.002+08:00

Lol ok.

I hate shopping.
But for once in my life, I did it willingly.

I mean as much as I say looks are secondary, everyone wants to look their best, especially fro graduation night.
Ok the thing is, if it was a wedding i was attending (not mine -.-) I wouldn't care in the least.
I guess it's to do with the fact that it's among students of our school and of course friends.
That makes it more important.
Which was what spurred me on.

So yea, I spent more than I wished I had.
But guess what, mine was still rather little compared to others :P

So yea, now after grad night, shopping will no longer be of any interest to me.

But i guess shopping gave me something to do for once.
Now without a target to work towards, I no longer have much to do.
I think i shall grow bored soon.

Bored already in fact.
I'm even playing runescape -.-

Xd's and kelly's outing

2008-11-14T01:13:00.004+08:00

For once, I didn't feel guilty for doing anything else other than studying.
For the past 3-4 weeks, everytime I do something else other than study, I always feel guilty.
Yea, I feel it.
The thing is, I just pushed it aside, and did nothing about it.
I wish I did do something though.. But guess its too late huh.

Ok so yea, we shoved O levels aside and really openly enjoyed ourselves for the first time in a month since the O's started.
The movie was planned, we watched Madagascar.
It seemed that our group grew twofold from the original, it became a group of 9 people consisting of Xd, Kelly, Jenny, Leen, Wy, Aud, Cheryl , kenneth and of course, me.
The movie was better than I expected.

So after that we had plenty of time to waste, and we decided to go check out the Kbox.
After much debate... though i had no intention on singing, I decided to just pay and go ahead.
The outing was after all in honour of xd and kelly and they wanted to sing.
It would only be nice if I joined them :P
Unfortunately, my rountine headache after a movie just couldn't disappoint.
Add that to the almost permenant headaches for the past few days.
So let's just say the beginning of my first experience at the kbox kindda sucked.
With the loud blaring music pounding through the speakers and the pounding headache it more or less became (pounding)^2.
You seriously dun wanna feel like I did.
The headache decided to stay as well.
I pretty much felt like shit for more than half the session.

It got better, I started to join in and sing those songs that I knew but still refused the microphone.
To be perfectly honest, I thought my singing sucked.
And I hate embarrasing myself.
So yea it was that way for awhile.
While the other few like xd, kelly, cheryl, wen yan and audrey did.

Lol never knew xd and kelly sang so high.
I can never reach their pitch.
Both of their voices are quite easy to pick out amongst those who were singing, cause they were mainly on the higher range.

Oh not to mention there were many chinese songs that I had never heard in my life before.
I got bored after awhile.
Together with xd and jenny, we took the long 10 chinese song break to go to the library nearby to borrow books.
We actually got back before the 10 songs ended.

After that we had sorta sot-ted more.
So yea, managed to get jenny to actually sing.
Like really sing -.-
He's not bad!

Ok by then I had losen up to and was pretty enthu already.
When the others had left, leaving me, xd, kelly and jenny, I finally had the guts to try with the microphone.

Firstly, using a microphone is weird.
I sound nothing like what I sound like.
I didn't sound anything like i thought i sounded like.
I couldn't really hear me actually >< lol so it wasn't as bad as i expected.

The last hour was crazy.
The other 3 sot people even danced -.-
Lol it was funny seeing them!
Cute :P

All in all, I'm glad I decided to join them after all.
I can't wait to go again! xD

OH MY GOD

2008-11-14T00:55:00.003+08:00

YAY!
The stupid freaking "O" levels are finally over!

I'm relieved it's over.
But regret not putting the needed effort.

Yes, it is over, I can't do anything more about it.
But I guess the horror of those horrible papers will forever be lurking at the back of my mind, returning to pay me visits from time to time whenever I don't want to think of it.
Until I get my results that is...
Once I get it, I'll have no choice but to accept.
So till them.. I'm still gonna feel guilty.

Dearest Physics

2008-10-29T19:41:00.002+08:00

So like we all know and have complained over, here comes the very touchy topic of our dearest physics paper today.

Wow.
Today was like totally amazing.
The paper was so wonderful.
I totally knew what I was doing.
The chances of me getting an A1 is like soooooo high!

NOT.

I'm not good at physics.
Never was.
Never have been.
Actually, I've never gotten an A for physics in my whole 2 years of taking in.
I did actually get a B though.

So I thought to myself that although I studied almost close to nothing, maybe I would at least be able to scrape through it.
But guess what?
I guess I won't huh.

I'm used to failing this subject.
Actually, I'm used to failing.
Period.

So it won't be a surprise if I get a fail.
But a girl can hope can't she?
Guess it was a bit too much to hope...

Scraping through is officially impossible now.
Thanks for making real obvious to me.
I now have no need to hope for anything other than a fail.
I should expect nothing better.

It's now glaringly obvious.
Thanks for giving me hope that I COULD have at least passed.
You just had to take it all away didn't you?
Make me feel even worse than I do.

Hopes dashed, as you cruelly brought me back to reality.

Hey but it's like totally my fault.

- Yes, I know I didn't exactly put in the effort.
But still, you didn't have to make it so hopeless for me did ya!?
- Wow the teachers so thought me everything in the paper that was tested.
I'm just never listening huh!?
A mere whisper, that... NO BODY heard oO?
- It's totally in the syllabus!
I just conveniently didn't see anything on it!
- Wow it's in the textbook!
There were so many diagrams!
That were apparently invisible to the eye!
- The new stuff are just for show!
There is no need to test it!
- The old stuff are still in the textbook.
That's why it's called OLD.
It's TOTALLY there!
So test it why don't ya!

Just go combust.
Just go melt.
Just go photosynthesize!
Like whatever!

Taking up space

2008-10-27T18:18:00.006+08:00

Ok this post is mainly to take up space.

Oh about the collage.
I don't see any resemblence to any of them.

But it was fun and amusing to see the people that supposedly look like me.
LOL!
Not to mention shocking.
I mean seriously oO?
Do I look anything like them?

~ SLACKING ~

I'm totally slacking!
NOOOOO!
BAD me! (=.=)
Lol really, I so shouldn't be here.
Not to mention be typing this.
Or even wasting time on the collage thingy.
GAH!
WHY?!
WHY do I have so little disipline T.T!

My Heritage Face Recognition

2008-10-27T17:35:00.010+08:00

Lol ok so I was so bored. I went to try this.

My Heritage Face Recognition - http://www.myheritage.com/celebrity-face-recognition
Basically what it does is to scan your face and then match it to faces of celebrities.
It compares the likeness and then rates it in term of percentage.

So I tried my picture. From... I think about 3 years back?
I look about the same anyway.
But it was my best picture yet.

Wanna know why?
1. It was using a handphone camera.
2. The handphone camera wasn't that good.

Lol ok so anyway.. these were the results.

78% Norkys Batista
76% Woranuch Wongsawan
74% Bonnie Pink
73% Jang Nara
74% Zoe Tay (@.@!)
74% Jet Li
72% Kajol
71% Holin Tsai
71% Takeuchi Yuko
71% Miriam Yeung

oO?!
I'm like whatever...

Ok. So now with a slightly better camera and a picture more updated (somewhere this year), I obviously have a different batch of look-alike-celebrities.
The percentage likeness has also dropped alot.

Quizzy!

2008-10-24T20:10:00.005+08:00

Quiz

I'm tagged by: Myself?
I'm so bored!
But I don't wanna study ><

Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag the people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1) Have you given your first kiss away?
Ohhhh yes!
Hmm more than first in fact!
To my.. Father, mother, sisters and brothers.
Duh! oO What were you thinking :P

2) Spoilt?
Yea definately! I'm sot too ! xD

3) Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Nowhere in particular, just a place where I can have peace... FINALLY -.-

4) If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
For school to be non-exsistant.Which will never happen.
So on a more realistic side... To not be a continuous disappointment.

5) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yea... In my dreams.
In reality, nah . It will never happen.

6) Who/What are you afraid to lose the most now?
The people I love. Friends and family.
Change. I hate change.

7) If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Save a portion, donate a portion, invest another portion.
Actually, I have no idea.

8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Nope, I'm shy ya :P

9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Lame,lame and.. lame? ><

10) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Plenty of stuff, too many to lists out.
Most importantly
1. he cannot smoke or drink
2. must be funny
3. NO vulgarities >< (does not swear)
4. NO unneccessary piercing!

11) Which type of person do you hate the most?
Liars, backstabbers and hypocrites. People who judge everything just by its cover.
As much as we all know it (looks) is an important factor, it's not everything.

12) What is your ambition?
No idea. I take a day as it comes.

13) If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Rather they keep quiet. Hey, they're my faults... I know them. ><

14) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Not to judge people, not to jump to conclusions without facts and to think positive whenever possible.(though it never happens)

15) Are you a shopaholic or not?
Not. I hate shopping.... unless its for an unlimited supply of romance novels ><
Present shopping is ok too i guess XD

16) If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
My looks? (though i hate it when ppl keep harping on their looks ><), my stubbornness and my selfishness.

17) What do you usually do at home?
Play the computer, sleep or slack.READ! YAY!

18) Any weird habits or quirks?
Erm... what the definition of weird oO?

19) How do you think the person who tagged you can change to be a better person ? (It's perfectly fine to leave it blank if you think he/she is perfect).
NA since I'm talking about me.

20) What would you be doing if you were not taking this quiz?
Slacking, reading.Being bored

people I tag:
1. XD-dy!
2. Kelly!
3. Eneeli
4. Jenny! (take in my tagbox since you don't have a blog) xPPPP

Afraid

2008-10-18T22:58:00.003+08:00

GAHZ!

Ok here I am, 2 days before the first o level paper.
BLEHS!
I'm afraid for not feeling afraid.
Makes sense?
....

Man! This is so sucky!
I think on of the reason why I'm feeling this way is specially so, since I'm feeling drained.
The common test, the prelims... and now the o's.
In a time span of... what? 3 months oO?
Stupid man.
Wow. I am SOOO not drained.

Another reason is probably because I no longer feel anything when I get my results.
I've already failed time and time again, that now I no longer cry over it.
Now I see the score and just shrug.

I have to admit that one reason is because I know I didn't put in my all.
It seems I won't be either for this MAJOR O level exam.

I feel nothing! Nil! Zilch! Nada!
Oh Man!
PLEASE!
I need to feel the urgency like... NOW!
Before would have been better.
But now won't be bad either....
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr

Oh man...~
This sucks big time.

So much to do. So little time

2008-10-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

Ok...
Today felt like it was the last day of school.
But duh, of course it so wasn't.
Slacked the whole day away.
Even came online. (as can be seen since I posted)
Horrible.

~ Gah ~

What else is there...
Er...
I'm slacking now.
Yay me.

~ ROAR ~

I can't wait for tomorrow to end.
Like seriously.

Man this sucks.
I feel bored.
There's so much to do, and so little time.
Yet I don't seem to be doing anything.
I feel guilty.
Very guilty in fact.
But apparently not guilty enough -.-

~ Haiz ~

Failure

2008-10-01T22:59:00.005+08:00

Sometimes the same feeling keeps rushing over me.
The same old feeling of failin,of dissapointment.

I know I'm incompetent.
But there is no need to keep bringing it up.
Or rubbing it in my face.
I know as the eldest of five children, I have failed miserably.
I KNOW ok!

I know I'm not good enough.
I know I never will be.
I KNOW it.
So DON'T bring it up.
I beg of you!

I hate myself for that.
Hate myself for dissapointing not only me, but you.
I know you no longer have high hopes for me.
I have to say, I can't expect you to after failing you all this time.

The thing is, I've already failed.
I've resigned myself to that.
I can no longer, and am not that high in your eyes.
There are the other siblings to take over me and do better than I have.
For that I'm glad.

But time and time again, you bring it up.
Be it intentionally or unintentionally.
Even her teasing... It hurts you know.
Real bad.

Even today...In the car...
You've set your hopes on her.
I'm sure she'll be the one to make you proud.
I never have.
I doubt I will anymore.
Nothing is enough.
She has done everything I've not.
She won medals, been excepted into good schools, she's the one you've pin your hopes on.
Now I'm at the next stage.
If I fail you again.
It will be she who'll be the one.
And I KNOW I will fail.
I'm not good enough.

I don't have her motivation, determination, kindness and tolerance.
I'll fail you.
That's a sure thing.

~ I hate this ~

A spur of the moment feeling that has been bugging me for ages.
Forgive me for letting it out here.
If you happen to read it, I'm not emo.
I just needed to let it out.

Today

2008-10-01T22:41:00.004+08:00

Hey...

So yea, Hari Raya has offically came.
I can start eating during the day already.
But it feels real weird.
I keep stopping short from reaching for water or food before I remember fasting is over.
I have to say that I've almost got used to it.
Unfortunately, I've gotta change my rountine again.

~ Z ~

As usual, we have the normal Hari Raya rountines.
Wake up in the morning, bathe and change into Baju kurung.
Have the normal asking for forgiveness session and then we eat our so called breakfast consisting of the same old stuff from every Hari Raya.
Next comes the visitors.
My cousins from my dad's side.
Boy, was it akward.
The cool thing was my oldest cousins daughter.
So cute!
I actually carried her!
Lol she seemed to like me, I was actually surprised (and secretly pleased).
But of course that wasn't the case (shrugs).
I think it was my shiny teeth that got to her.(braces...)
Or that's what everyone deduced that is.
I guess that was the most likely reason.

So that's here.
My phone hardly does her justice.
She's way cuter in real life.
I love her eyes.
They're pale brownish green, with slight golden flakes.

So yea.. That was in the morning.
After that we left for my maternal grandmother's house.
The old boring rountine as well.
I hate going there.
I feel so akward...
So out of place.
The way we've been brought up.. Is such that we hardly know anything of our own religion.
Sometimes I wish my parents had thought us more.
There, everyone was so close to one another.
It felt as though my family was totally out of place.
Hardly any of us siblings mingled.
My dad was even worse, he totally stood out like a sore thumb.
He was the only one not in the festive clothing.
When it was time to go back... That was the worse.
Everyone was asking one another for forgiveness, and we just tried hiding ourselves away.
That's what I go through yearly...
It has come to a point that I can actually say I do not look forward to Hari Raya...

~ haiz ~

Yay?

2008-09-28T20:30:00.002+08:00

OK so, there's like 2 more days till the end of fasting.
The first lunch I'm gonna have after hari raya is Mac!
Grrrr... But the thing is... My teeth are not cooperating either.
Stupid teeth!
I can't even eat properly T.T

~ Gah ~

Anyway, totally slacked the weekend away again...
Such a failure.
I'm like so bored, but I feel like doing nothing.
Does that make sense oO?
Sounds weird to me.

~ ZZZness ~

Slacked at home the whole of yesterday.
Today, I woke at almost 12.
I even went to the supermarket O.O!
Never mind, at least we have junk food at home now :D
I'll have things to eat.
Especially for my nighttime snacks!

GRRRRRRRRR...........

2008-09-24T21:52:00.004+08:00

Ever feel left out?
Feel that sometimes you're left out on purpose?

I always do.
Maybe it's me being paranoid or something. *shrugs*
But I hate the feeling of not knowing.
So I just shut up.
If you know nothing, there is nothing to say.
Unless you wanna make a fool out of yourself and say something wrongly.

So get this.
It is not because I don't want to talk.
It's because I don't know what you're taling about.
So I have nothing to add to the conversation. Period.
I am not having mood-swings.
I AM NOT oblivious to what is going on around me.
It's a matter of whether I chose to respond to it or not.
I do listen, whether you know it or not does not concern me.
But DO NOT. I repeat, DO NOT, ever treat me as though I am not there.
That's when I really get pissed and really don't feel/ want to talk at all.

I admit.
I'm a very insecure person.
I always think that what I do is wrong.
That i may unintentionally say something wrong or hurt someone.
Another one of my many faults.
Maybe I shouldn't care so much.
I keep telling myself that.
It just has no effect on me.

No idea why.
But I hate it horribly.
It's a weakness I cannot stand most of the time.
When I recognise the feeling in me, I respond in a weird way.
Another reason why I don't talk.
I mean come on.
If you don't say anything, nothing can go wrong no?

I have no idea why I'm even writing this here.
It's the spur of the moment thing.
Once I gain my senses, it will disappear.

- Some Tests I Did -

2008-09-21T21:18:00.007+08:00

O.O!
Never knew I was that bad.

- Discovering my sins test -

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Very High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

- The Personality Disorder Test -

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High

Yay!

2008-09-21T20:08:00.003+08:00

Whoo hoo~!
Got my books!
Went to the library today, got myself a few books which can hopefully last me.
Though I wish I had had the discipline to have just ignored them totally.
Unfotunately, that was not the case, and I gave in to temptation and just borrowed them anyway.
But hey! It wasn't me who looked for the books. It was my sis :P
So I sorta just sat and slacked and waited for her to bring the books to me.
Evil huh? (I know ><)

So...Besides that, nothing much happened.
Woke up at the normal 5 am to eat. Went straight back to bed after that.
Woke up at about 11 +. (O.O)
Lolz so yea... Had to get out of bed to reach my hp. (which was ringing - xd called ><)
So yea, picked it up. Decided I didn't want to go watch the movie with them.
Since I was already up and about, I decided to remain that way.
But I have to say, I was surprised xd was already awake by then :P

~ lalalala ~

I really have nothing else left to say.
Days to O - 29
Die.

Bored

2008-09-21T00:13:00.001+08:00

Time : 12.13 (start)
Day: Sunday (early morning)
Should be: Sleeping
Currently: Blogging (bored!)
Feeling: Sian (Still bored!)

~ROAR~

So it seem I have nothing to do to pass my time, but blog.
But the thing is... I've got absolutely nothing to say.
Well.. I guess I could tell you what I did today.
But that would be just plain boring.

~ BLEH ~

I'm craving more romance novels!
I still don't seem to get enough of them.
No matter how predictable they are.
Man! This sucks.
I so should not be thinking of STORY books.
I should be dreaming of TEXTbooks instead.
But that is so not happening.
Not now, not ever.
I seriously wonder how people really push themselves.
Do they like... NOT have a life?
That they study 24/7 and do absolutely nothing else but eat and breathe?!
Ahh.. I know it's an exaggeration.. But you should get my point.

~ ZNESS ~

Oh I finally got my MAC today!
We broke fast at the mac at amk drive-through.
But we of course ate there.
Only... My dad had to spoil things in the beginning.
But after the food was bought, the seats secured, we had fun.
Just crapping , laughing and enjoying each others company.
It's very seldom we do that.

~ Haiz ~
I'm off to shower. Cya!